Honesty; why is it so hard? That's a more involved question than I have time to consider right now, but it arose out of a thought process that lead me to the following conclusion...
I have a habit of lying to myself, which is roughly as ridiculous as trying to look at myself with no reflective surface in sight.
It's usually avoidance; lies of omission. I waste my energy by directing my focus and/or emotions towards a smaller component of the whole, ignoring the real problem, and that doesn't help at all.
My current elephant in the room?
Jealousy.
Pointless...
Useless...
Somewhat pathetic...
Jealousy!